I decided to get rid of the old journal by making a new one. It was annoying to scroll down past it.

I've been recently studying selective famous artworks to develop my art style. I want this style of a mixed messy and clean. I know it sounds like a contradiction, but I'm just not explaining it clearly. In the future I hope show what I mean visually by posting the pieces I'm working on.

Other than that, I have another issue which reasons my lack of interest in uploading my artwork. I'm so weary of this ongoing absurd conflict I've been having with these two outrageous morons. I had a great friendship with these two that I speak of, but unfortunately their obsessive fixation on our friendship has been... violated. I've apologized many times when it wasn't my place to do so... I was not the one at fault. Yet, all the blame was thrown at me and I took it to keep our friendship, until I had enough. I already tried to solve this problem but the sarcasm continued and I could no longer stand the disrespect.

I'm not so exhausted because of our "fight", since there's no actual fight. I've taken this entire situation the only way I know how to solve them. I've been sincerely nice, explained my feelings multiple times, and explained my problems directly to them. If no one is willing to listen and just throw irrelevant attacks at me by switching my words around, then that's where I end the friendship between us. What gets me tired is you guys still trying to ruin any reputation I have. (Trust me though, it's not working... everything you say to me comes back. It's starting to just get obnoxious hearing about it.) I'm sorry you have this psychological obsession over me that you must have a 3-year-old temper tantrum and go to anyone who you think will believe your lies about me. I really am sorry and tired, at least get some more creative lies so I can laugh. (Face palms might leave a bruise soon)

I know you'll one day come around to this wall-of-text (because no matter what I'm doing you two are just as bad as stalkers and have to comment about it) or someone will tell the message for you. So I just put it on my DA because I was typing here anyways and gives you two a little bit of an adventure trying to find out if I'm shit talking you two. (Sorry, this is all I got guys! I'm not good at lies.)

I'm sorry I could not help you in any other way. I know how many mental issues you have after seeing your reactions towards the simplest things. But maybe me ending our friendship will help you in the long run. If you're so upset about this because I was a "good friend" maybe next time when you get a precious friend... don't ruin it because of bullshit like this.